For 25
years I have been trying to be the best Jasmin that I can be...I struggle with
reality sometimes...what world do I live and love in where being a stripper,
video girl, Instagram host or model equates success. When I was a young girl I
remember watching my mother get up for work every day, I remember watching
women on TV like Claire Huxtable and the young college-aged women on A
Different World and I remember knowing that was the life I had to have. I had
to be a college educated women who knew my worth was more than my looks but
also know that my looks were a plus. Now let's fast forward to 2015 where there
is no privacy or any responsibility...reality TV is the goal of most or to be
famous....see now I have never desired to be famous except for that time when I
lived in Atlanta for an extended vaca and I was just figuring out my life. I
thank God for blessing me with my morals and my self-discipline but in this day
and age, I wonder if that's holding me back...Sitting at my desk trying to
figure out how I can make that impact on the world without losing my soul to do
so, without compromising who I am and who I want to be but at the same time
wanting to make a difference in the eyes of the youth. So I came up with the
concept of Ladies in Training, I have dabbled in creating my own mentor
programs several times but my laziness got in the way...but this time it is
different...my silence is acceptance and there are certain things I am just not
willing to accept. I want young women to know showing everything won't
necessarily get you to the top but it will get you noticed. Going to college is
hard but so is trying to be famous. Now I am not here to judge- because I too
am still figuring out my place in this world, I just know there is more to
being a black woman than being or becoming over-sexualized. I have nieces who
look up to me and secretly brag about me on career day, so I can't just do
anything... I gave up dating because I wanted to be the best me and that sucks
on it's on but that is a whole other blog and story if you have a bottle of
wine and reruns of Sex and The City to watch. Now I am sitting at my desk
contemplating my next move, my next thought and I am nervous, to say the least,
but I know my task in life is not to sit behind the desk and be told what to do
but to actually change someone's thought process or their life. I am not better
than anyone but I had to learn my worth- I am not better than you but I am
better than this situation or this event. I kept telling people that I deserved
more but I wasn't putting myself on the same pedestal that I talked
about...in order to change your world you have to begin to change the things
that make up your world.
